Last day of 2004

Pearls and Dreams

This year has gone by incredibly fast, I can't believe it. It doesn't seem like that long ago that I was sitting telling my husband that I wasn't up to staying up to midnight, and wound up staying up till 3 am watching 'Left Behind' Movies on TBN

This year has been an incredible year. Lots of revelations to this brain of mine. I have learned there are certain people I really do want to impress, and others I could care less about impressing. I have learned that my motivations for impressing people no longer have to do with them accepting me, or not seeing my faults, but wanting them to see the Jesus in me.

I have learned that my passion for God goes deeper, and stronger than I could ever have imagined and I'm willing to sacrifice ANYTHING for that relationship. I have learned that God not only does answer my prayers, but he sometimes answers them immediately, all I have to do is keep my eyes open,and other times, he makes me wait. Either way, I have to pay attention and trust Him.
I have learned, that when I just can't make it anymore, when I am out of strength, when I am at my wits end, and there just isn't another ounce of strength in me, and it just isn't fair anymore ... that God is still there ..and that is where He can show himself most powerful ...in my weakness His strength shows!

I have learned that my love to serve people has definition ... my goal is to 'irrevocably spoil' those whom I'm serving. I had someone use that phrase after I did some volunteer work this last fall, I loved it!

I have learned that I am stronger than I thought I was. That I am smarter than I thought I was. That I am better than I thought I was. That I am more treasured than I thought I was ... and I've learned that my husband putting me down and not treasuring me is not ok, and it's HIS problem, his character flaw, not mine.

I have learned, that I still have dreams to dream and goals to reach, and life to live.