Everything Matters ... Nothing Matters

I heard a song today by Sara Groves that I'd not heard before. It's called "Rewrite this tragedy" and I realized .. it all matters ..and yet none of it matters.

Everything that has happened has made me who I am today ...good and bad.
I have made bad decisions, I have made good decisions.
People have hurt me, I have hurt people. I've been betrayed, I've betrayed. I've been abandoned and I've abandoned .. it all plays into how i make today's choices.

Yet in the grand scheme of things ...nothing NOTHING is so bad that it can't be undone.
Nothing is so good, so right so perfect that it can't be unstrung.

My heart can be broken today, and leaping tomorrow and visa versa.

Today, I can have a roof with a hole the size of a bucket ..and tomorrow I can be walking through the door of a house that love built.

Today, I can have the perfect job and tomorrow I can be laid off.
Today I can be in pain, unable to walk and tomorrow i can be running a marathon and tomorrow not walking again.

Everything changes ... every choice we make, every decision ... every move changes the next move and yet, in the end, it all seems to work out.
There is nothing that I can do, short of taking my own life, that is permanent.
The most consistant thing in life is change.

I can make choices that make life harder ... I could rob a bank and make life really hard.
There are choices I can make that make life harder in the short term but improve life ..like working to get a habitat house .. or a degree.

I can refuse to take algebra at 14 and struggle through it at 46 ..
I can refuse to take a supervisory job because I don't know that at 24 I'm going to be wiped out by my own immune system and have my disability payment significantly lower than it would have been had I taken the management payment.

I can quit ... or I can finish .. and in the long run it all seems to work out ...struggles come, struggles go .. but the consistancy of life is that it changes ...

Lyrics to Rewrite This Tragedy :
Tonight I forgot a
line in the play that you and I Have been rehearsing since the day we met

It made
me put down my script, made me look around a bit

And wonder how we came to play
these roles
I'm here to re-write this tragedy

One line at a time

Hold on,

I'm
changing all the scenery

It's okay we'll be fine

Cause we know how this
ends
Sometimes it's hard to tell what to keep and what to kill

What of this
makes us who we are

All that we love the most, all that we cannot let go

How much
of change can we survive?
I'm here to re-write this tragedy

One line at a
time

Hold on,

I'm changing all the scenery

It's okay we'll be fine

Cause we know
how this ends

We know there's a better story
There's a better story

Of true
love of true grace

There's the hope of glory

And our first chance to be truly
brave

It's the place we're goingWhen we can't stay where we are
I'm here to
re-write this tragedy

One line at a time

Hold on, I'm changing all the scenery

It's okay we'll be fine

Cause we know how this ends

We know there's a better
story

Tonight I forgot a line in the play that you and I Have been rehearsing
since the day we met

It made me put down my script, made me look around a bit

And
wonder how we came to play these roles
I'm here to re-write this tragedy

One
line at a time

Hold on,

I'm changing all the scenery

It's okay we'll be fine

Cause
we know how this ends
Sometimes it's hard to tell what to keep and what to
kill

What of this makes us who we are

All that we love the most, all that we
cannot let go

How much of change can we survive?
I'm here to re-write this
tragedy

One line at a time

Hold on, I'm changing all the scenery

It's okay we'll be
fine

Cause we know how this endsWe know there's a better story
There's a
better story

Of true love of true grace

There's the hope of glory

And our first
chance to be truly brave

It's the place we're going

When we can't stay where we
are
I'm here to re-write this tragedy

One line at a timeHold on,

I'm changing
all the scenery

It's okay we'll be fine

Cause we know how this ends

We know there's
a better story