"Painting Pictures of Egypt" by Sara Groves

I was wondering, today, why I'm working so hard ... will I ever get to where I'm going ...either in recovering from the eating disorder (ok, so that was what triggered the thoughts) or even with school ... been a bit discouraged of late ... got in the car and went to the grocery store ...punched in my new CD that Don gave me for Christmas and this song played ... I was painting pictures of Egypt ... I don't want to leave here, I don't want to stay ..it feels like pinching either way .. and the places that I long for the most are the places where I've been, they are calling out to me like a long lost friend.

It's not about losing faith,
It's not about trust
It's all about comfortable
When you move so much
And the place I was wasn't perfect
But I'd found a way to live
And it wasn't milk or honey
But then neither is this.

The past is so tangible
I know it by heart
Familiar things are never easy
To discard
I was dying for some freedom
But now I hesitate to go
And I'm caught between the PROMISE
and the things I know.

I've been painting pictures of Egypt,
I've been leaving out what it lacks
The future feels so hard,
And I wanna go back!
But the places that used to fit me,
Cannot Hold the things I've learned
Those roads were closed off to me
While my back was turned!

If it comes too quick
I may not appreciate it
Is that the reason behind it all
this time and sand?
And if it comes too quick
I may not recognize it
is that the reason behind it all
this time and sand?