tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8988655.post111008207253436752..comments2023-10-17T07:34:35.780-05:00Comments on Pearls and Dreams: A Wasted Day on the Web, more confused than everDreaming againhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15717590226520457326noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8988655.post-1110122739261512382005-03-06T09:25:00.000-06:002005-03-06T09:25:00.000-06:00I really think that it has to do with the few doct...I really think that it has to do with the few doctors that have told me that it's all in my head, nothing wrong ...etc. Somewhere in the back of my mind, or maybe it's the front of my mind! I'm still listening to them ... and I have to be shown they're wrong before I can believe it. <br /><br />I've had thousands of dealings with doctors (not thousands of doctor's, just thousands of appointments, face to face, phone calls, in hospital dealings, etc) and only a handful of bad experiences, but those handful of bad ... color my trust of the good ones. <br /><br />Also, I wonder how much having an eating disorder for 25 years of my life plays into this ..not trusting my body, not trusting it to do what it's supposed to do. Not believing what the doctor's say about it ... <br /><br />My psychiatrist says that my denial of medical things until I can see the black and white proof, is part of my OCD. I keep telling him I do NOT HAVE OCD but he doesn't listen, he just grins at me and says "uh huh". <br />Then if I insist he starts listing off the things I do like an absolute refusal to be late with a REAL FULL BLOWN PANIC ATTACK if you're going to make me 5 minutes late (which in reality is 5 to 10 minutes early for the appointment/setting whatever) <br />Checking the stove 4 to 8 times a night before going to bed. <br />There are a few more things too, but I keep telling him I'm quirky, I'm careful and I'm punctual ... not OCD. <br /><br /><br />So, I'm not sure what's going on or why ... but when you're treated so callously by one doctor ... it can and does color your belief in yourself in dealing with other doctors ... sooooo ...Dreaming againhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15717590226520457326noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8988655.post-1110112891721742022005-03-06T06:41:00.000-06:002005-03-06T06:41:00.000-06:00reading this i started thinking of thomas and his ...reading this i started thinking of thomas and his encounter with Jesus after the resurrection. you remember, the whole gotta see it for myself thing.<br /><br />and i could hear Jesus saying to Thomas: Look, Thomas we're in Isreal, not Missouri. Blessed are they who have not seen and yet believed.<br /><br />i guess i'm just a wee bit confuzzled as to why you might believe a reporter (aka non-medical professional and untrained in medicine) over a whole slew of medical professionals (lots of training and experience)?<br /><br />just a wonderment....<br /><br />hugs.daisymariehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16335423179107661562noreply@blogger.com